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What I realized in that moment was how the
power of anger — no matter how lofty the intent — seduces us into
accepting fear’s lowest common denominator. I had attached to being
right, like being angry, is a short-term solution and a way of
camouflaging our agendas. When we are so committed to being right, we
are often blanketing our anger.
I do have to concede however, that anger can serve a purpose; first it
tells us something needs a deeper focus. Secondly, for those who are
learning to own their
power anger is often an important flag in
recognizing it’s time to honor boundaries, their voice, and their
freedom to be self expressed. When we allow anger to be more of a
resource center, that calls to look within informing us of a deeper
truth, rather than a command center that compels to react we can be
served well by our anger. Although I have come to believe that anger
never is the right answer, I found myself cutting off my client instead
of inviting him in. What did being right and being angry have in common?
When we dare to lift the carpet of anger, we never find our joys waiting
for us with outstretched arms; instead, we find our fears cowering from
the light of introspection. Mirror, mirror on the wall who is the
rightist of all?
Often, fear is desire turned on its head. When we fear that the desired
object will be denied us, we manipulate our fear into anger for the
socially acceptable reason that showing anger is preferable to showing
fear. The agreed upon, planetary perception is that when we admit to
being afraid, we wimp out —we make ourselves vulnerable. So we use anger
to maneuver others into getting what we want.
We use anger as our ace in the hole because it creates distance so that
others cannot see, smell or touch our fear. Anger is the response of the
powerless. Children become angry because they are dependent on adults
for their survival — they are literally fighting for their lives. Even
adults, who have choices, sometimes remain fixated on the anger response
because they have not owned their independence and right to choose. The
following scenarios demonstrate this:
The “withholding” scenario. Your mate won’t pick up after him/herself.
You withhold sex, affection, and open communication to get what you
want. Or you yell or discuss the situation ad nauseam and wear him/her
down until you win.
The “make wrong” scenario. Your boss makes you angry. How much energy do
you spend making him/her wrong with others? Notice how the more wrong
you make your boss, the more justified and right you feel.
The “I’ll reject you before you reject me” scenario. A friend doesn’t
give what you consider enough time to your relationship. You retaliate
by creating reasons to distance yourself from it. How many relationships
have you abandoned so you didn’t have to feel rejected? No matter, you
win and that is what matters!
Many angry people don’t have anger management problems; they have
intimacy issues. Intimacy entails openness with self and others.
Intimacy allows us to expose our fears and receive healing. Anger
signals our unwillingness to be intimate with ourselves. Anger
alienates. It puts us in defense mode and redirects our resources away
from what would bring us joy and love.
I don’t recall being an angry child or young woman. Yet, when I searched
my memory, scalding events began to attach themselves to each other
until I awoke one morning, in my thirtieth year, buried in an avalanche
of pent up anger. All the equality I had been promised, the dreams I had
been assured of, and the love I was owed in exchange for my hard work
had eluded my grasp. And was I pissed off about it! From that moment on,
real joy became a thing of the past; my anger became my shadow. It
assured me: Wherever you go, there I shall be also.
Life always gives us what we desire. So when we look for evidence about
how unfair life is, we get plenty of evidence to support our
perspectives. The surer I became that life was hard, the more afraid I
became. Around every corner lay unending opportunities for me to do
battle with the injustice that I expected to encounter. I was right, but
was I miserable! The course in miracles asks it well “which do you want
more to be right or to be happy?”
I looked for and found plenty of outlets for my anger. I embraced
opportunities to explode on humanity, including, sadly, most of my
dearest friends. I also became active in my community by sitting on the
boards of many non-profit organizations. I accomplished many wonderful
things with my anger, such as co-creating the first youth credit union
in North California for low-income immigrants. But, with all my
fear-driven success, I was ultimately causing and experiencing a lot of
pain because I could not admit that I was afraid.
Using racism, I cloaked my fear in anger. Who was going to argue with a
Black woman about the tyranny of racism? No one. This became my new
armor. As long as I could keep people at a distance I felt safe and in
control; but that was a false sense of security. The distance created
deep pain that I was unwilling to tap into and resolve. It became far
easier to project my pain onto everyone else.
When coaching, I try to remember that anger is not an emotion to ignore
or step over. It is not a “bad” emotion; it is just the voice of our
pain. Typically, we get stuck in anger and react from it. Anger then
becomes a world unto itself. What is important to remember is not to be
fooled by giving into it. Recall an instance when someone else’s anger
pushed your buttons and, before you knew it, you were either saying or
doing something childish that you later regretted or had to work very
hard to justify. Engaging anger holds us hostage to the emotion. But
when we give anger space by staying curious about it, something deeper
emerges for the client and coach to work with.
As coaches, we must look inside, underneath and all around to see what
the anger is trying to show us. We encourage our clients to stay present
to the anger without succumbing to it. When we work with our clients in
discovering the true agenda, they can learn to respond to that agenda
instead of reacting to the anger.
Anger doesn’t resolve any issues because it almost never is about the
surface problem. Untreated, anger creates the dis-ease that contaminates
all our relationships. It is usually a cover for fear; fear that we will
not be loved unconditionally. When we use anger to get what we want it
is a “get” that is stolen rather than freely given. Unable to trust that
we can get what we want without the force of anger we rob ourselves the
opportunity for others to engage with us and give to us freely. It
wounds us while desensitizing us to the suffering of self and others.
Anger is a toxic lie waiting to be unearthed, healed and released.
Although I cannot give you a foolproof technique that will help your
coaching, I can, however, share with you my experience of the healing
power of acceptance. When anger was still feasting on my soul, I was
taking a coaching course taught by two dynamite coaches. Anger ridden as
I was at that time, I found opportunities to find them wrong, complain
and dare anyone to argue with me. What I noticed was neither of them
ever challenged me, got angry with me or demanded that I be any
different. Believe me, I looked for the catch, but could find none. For
the first time I started to feel accepted, and this helped me to stop
feeding my anger. They listened at the soul level. I felt heard not
deterred. Their radical act of acceptance created space for my fear to
surface.
Another morning, towards the end of my thirties, I woke up thinking:
Today, I can choose to be a free Black woman, where racism may exist,
but I exist differently with it. Today, I can believe that the world
loves me, wants to play with me, and can’t wait to interact with me. By
allowing my fear to expose itself, those wise coaches gently allowed me
to choose to be coached into something more — a life by design instead
of a life by default. By the end of the course, I was sitting in a room
basking in the acceptance my soul craved. We are not so different — you,
me and our clients. Love and acceptance are what we all desire. In fact,
my Native American elders say, “Mitakuye Oyasin,” which means, “We are
all related.” The client’s pain is our pain. Allowing ourselves to lean
into the pain and the fear, being open to feeling it unlocks the door to
our acceptance of it.
When our clients bring us anger issues, it is almost always a red
herring. There is often something beneath the surface that lies at the
heart of the issue. It is our job as coaches to fish up that invisible
something, giving it and the client room to breathe and transform. Coach
the human not the anger. In the face of anger our best skill is using
the salve of compassion.
When anger rides in on your clients, here are a few crucial things to
remember:
• Remember it is covering up something deeper.
• Allow the anger the space it needs, and invite it to drop its mask.
• Love your clients as they are; let them to be who they are in this
moment.
• See the beauty in the client no matter who they are showing up as.
• Be curious.
Ask the following questions:
• What is hurting right now?
• Does being angry get you what you want and make you happy?
• When the anger is gone, what are you left with?
Finally, don’t forget to check in the mirror, because our clients always
show up with exactly the same issues we have as coaches. Should you find
yourself with an angry client, it’s time to look under your anger
carpet, too. One of the most wonderful gifts of coaching is having our
reality mirrored back to us! You can be sure my client sent me on my own
treasure hunt.
Together, clients and coaches have the power to choose to radically
transform and liberate their deepest anger and fear into acceptance.
When we expand our hearts —by seeing our client’s highest self, no
matter who is on the call, asking powerful questions, and, yes, adding a
dollop of love — a spiritual alchemy occurs. Without the shackles of
anger, our clients have the power to free up and redirect the resources
previously held hostage in the defensiveness of anger to the greater a
good of claiming a joyous life.
By
Melanie DewBerry-Jones
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